The children standing and washing each other with their active hands.
Admirable, Julie said.
Gorgeous, said Thomas.
I think this child is a bit of a smart-ass, said the Dead Father. I shall cause her to be sent to a Special School and her rusty-mouthed companion there also.
All this age fills up your heads, Hilda said. So you cannot remember what it was like, being a child. Probably you dont even remember the fear. So much of the it. So little of you. The lunge under the blanket.
Is that the kind that looks like a zoo?
The countryside. Flowers. Creeping snowberry. The road with dust. The sweat popping from little sweat glands. The line of the cable.
If you do that we shall leap into the reservoir, Lars said, together. And drown. I am going to tell you something utterly astounding, surprising, marvelous, miraculous, triumphant, astonishing, unheard of, singular, extraordinary, incredible, unforeseen, vast, tiny, rare, common, glaring, secret until today, brilliant and enviable; in short something unexampled in previous ages except for one single instance which is not really comparable; something we find impossible to believe in Paris (so how could anyone in Lyons believe it?), something which makes everyone exclaim aloud in amazement, something which causes the greatest joy to those who know of it, something, in short, which will make you doubt the evidence of your senses: We dont care what you think.
He does go on, said Julie.
We will never be parted. I am Hilda and he is Lars. When he is eighteen he is going to refuse to do his military service and I am going to do something so I can be put in the same jail with him, I havent thought it up yet.
Reasonably, said the girl, what a word.
We are together, said Hilda, and will always be. You are too old to know how it is.
It was not necessary, said the Dead Father, because I am the Father. All lines my lines. All figure and all groundmine, out of my head. All colors mine. You take my meaning.
Shout of Thomas to the men: Resume, resume!
In love? How do you know?
Great to be alive, said the Dead Father. To breathe in and out. To feel ones muscles bite and snap.
Two children. One male. One female. Not too big. Not too small. Holding hands.
Are you in school? Julie asked the children.
What do you study in school?
We have cut our fingers with an X-Acto knife and mingled our bloods, the boy said.
He is dead only in a sense, Thomas said.
I cannot bear to look longer, said Julie, let us proceed.
Didnt you?
There are cages, yes. But we have been experimenting with moats.
I have an eye for love, she said, and there it is. A clear instance.
They are lost in each other, said Julie. Soaks up all available awe.
The children kissed each other, on the lips.
Children, he said. Without children I would not be the Father. No Fatherhood without childhood. I never wanted it, it was thrust upon me. Tribute of a sort but I could have done without, fathering then raising each one of the thousands and thousands and tens of thousands, the inflation of the little bundle to big bundle, period of years, and then making sure the big bundles if male wore their cap-and-bells, and if not observed the principle of jus primae noctis, the embarrassment of sending away those I didnt want, the pain of sending away those I did want, out into the lifestream of the city, nevermore to warm my cold couch, and the management of the hussars, maintenance of public order, keeping the zip codes straight, keeping the fug out of the gutters, would have preferred remaining in my study comparing editions of Klinger, the first state, the second state, the third state, and so on, was there partingalong the fold? and so on, water stain and so on, but this was not possible, all went forth and multiplied, and multiplied, and multiplied, and I had to Father, it was the natural order, thousands, tens of thousands, but I wanted to wonder if if if I put a wood pulp mat next to a 100 percent rag print would there be foxing and whether the rumblings of the underground would shake the chalk dust from my pastels or not. I never wanted it, it was thrust upon me. I wanted to worry about the action of the sun fading what I valued most, strong browns turning to pale browns if not vacant yellows, how to protect against, that sort of thing, but no, I had to devour them, hundreds, thousands, feefifofum, sometimes their shoes too, get a good mouthful of childleg and you find, between your teeth, the poisoned sneaker. Hair as well, millions of pounds of hair scarifying the gut over the years, why couldnt they have just been thrown down wells, exposed on hillsides, accidentally electrocuted by model railroads? And the worst was their blue jeans, my meals course after course of improperly laundered blue jeans, T-shirts, saris, Thom McAns. I suppose I could have hired someone to peel them for me first.
Considerably, Thomas admitted.
Beautiful country around here, said Julie.
And on and on and on, said Thomas. However he is bearing up remarkably well.
Whats that? Thomas interrupted. He was pointing to the side of the road.
The children hugged each other tightly.
We had no choice, said Julie.
What do machines know?
He doesnt look dead to us, said the girl.
How did you come by it? asked Thomas. Accident or design?
He is walking, said the boy. Or standing up, anyhow.
Of course we are in school, Hilda said. Why does everyone always ask a child if he or she is in school? We are all in school. There is no way to excape.
Tell me, said Julie, did you ever want to paint or draw or etch? Yourself?
What is that? the children asked, pointing to the Dead Father.
We are twenty, said the girl. I am ten and he is ten. Old enough. We are going to live together all our lives and love each other all our lives until we die. We know it. But dont tell anyonebecause well be beaten, if the knowledge becomes general.
It is incomparable, said the Dead Father. Magnificent, that would be a word for it. I would I had two as good as the left. Old Plugalong.
Children in love, said Julie.
How is your leg? Thomas asked. The mechanical one.
These are odd children, Thomas said, but all children are odd children, rightly regarded.
Dyscrasia, the Dead Father said, that is what I think of it. Pathological. I shall issue a ukase against it.
They will need them in their long lives together, Thomas explained.
There is still more of the it than there is of me, said Thomas. But one gets along reasonably well.
Do we have to witness this? asked the Dead Father. This gross physicality?
And he is even older, she said, indicating Thomas.
Machines are sober, uncomplaining, endlessly efficient, and work ceaselessly through all the hours for the good of all, said the Dead Father. They dream, when they dream, of stopping. Of last things. They --
Tightening of the cable.
They dont seem very impressed, said the Dead Father. Where is the awe?
Small gifts to the children: a power mower, a Blendor.
Did you sterilize the knife? I hope? Julie asked.
Do you want to excape?
Goodbye! Goodbye! the children shouted. Dont tell, please dont tell, never tell, never tell, please!
We wont we wont we wont! they shouted back. The Dead Father did not shout.
I was quoting Mme de Sévigné, said the boy, except for the last part, which was mine.
Wrong, the Dead Father said gaily. Wrong, but close. Even older than that, but also younger. Having it both ways is a thing I like.
We dangled it in the vodka bottle, said the girl. I judged that sufficient.
He is bearing up remarkably well.
Arent they supposed to be throwing rocks at each other at this age? Thomas asked.
Always magnificent exceptions, Julie said.
We are invigorated with the sweet sensuality of language. We learn to make sentences. Come to me. May I come to your house? Christmas comes but once a year. Ill come to your question. The light comes and goes. Success comes to those who strive. Tuesday comes after Monday. Her aria comes in the third act. Toothpaste comes in a tube. Peaches come from trees and good results do not come from careless work. This comes of thoughtlessness. The baby came at dawn. She comes from Warsaw. He comes from a good family. It will come easy with a little practice. Ill come to thee by moonlight, though --
No way, the children said.
And he, she pointed to the Dead Father, must be, I cant imagine. Maybe a hundred.
Exactly.
That would do it, Thomas said.
Two tiny forefingers with short crusty cuts exhibited.
I am?
Children, said the Dead Father. Whippersnappers.
I am offended, said the Dead Father.
The latter, said the Dead Father. In my vastness, there was room for, necessity of, every kind of experience. I therefore decided that mechanical experience was a part of experience there was room for, in my vastness. I wanted to know what machines know.
You are in a new world, Thomas said. Nine-year-olds are arrested for rape. This is not that. Be grateful.
I am bearing up remarkably well, said the Dead Father, because I have hope.
These children are tuned a little fine, the Dead Father said, a Special School is the answer.
The children began caressing each other, with hands and cheeks and hair.
You must be about twenty-six.
Believe me, the Dead Father said, I never wanted it, I wanted only the comfort of my armchair, the feel of a fine Fabriano paper, the cool anxiety about whether I had been cogged if if if with a restrike or not, whether some cunning fellow had steelfaced an old copperplate and run off the odd thousand extra impressions, whether a thing was by Master HL or Master HB or if if if if --
Dont seem old enough, Thomas said. How old are you? he asked.
That is a Dead Father, Thomas told them.
